I feel bad for you. Stay strong.

Learn from your mistakes and never give up. This was a very expensive lesson but that's the amount we have to pay sometimes to really understand something.

I also recommend to turn on the IP adres confirmation on Bittrex and turn off withdraws except for 1 paper wallet.

It might be allot of money now, but in the future it might save you a bigger investment. Wish you well and good luck in the future.