I hear that time helps..... I'm just waiting for it. it's not like i did not know this would happen.... I had been expecting it... and thought I was prepared.... but I was so very wrong..... it just brought up so much that I had hidden away.... and I feel like I'm going crazy. Being severely depressed on top of it all really does not help.... I'm following you now.... thanks for the kind words.... and I am sorry for your losses as well....