Hello today I will talk about My positives, who really helped me, the worst phase and as I did to hide the cuts in my depression.
If you want to read the first post of my depression go here: https://steemit.com/depression/@asela/depression-and-self-mutilation-my-reaction-how-i-reacted-arriving-home-and-my-motivation
My positive points
Several times I thought about leaving my life back and give up, but my aunt Helena always helped me to think of positives for me to motivate and not give up, I have a good relationship with my mother, as a part of my depression, and the the reason it exclude me from family, her despise me, I never met my father, he always lived in another city, and that's the only thing I know about it, because my mother was separated from him when I was still doing 1 year age...
Who really helped me
I did not have much family support, I have no friends or boyfriend, because who wanted to date someone like me? A person who does not like herself,.
Who really helped me was my Aunt Helen and the coordinator of my school, they did everything to not leave me alone, and do not stay with negative thoughts because when I was alone thought a lot of bad and negative ...
Worst period
For a week, I had several suicidal thoughts, I began to feel enormous urge to cut myself, managed these wills for a few days, until the day came that I could not bear that out, and I ended up cutting my left wrist when I finished cutting me, not stand it and I ended up in tears, my wrist was bleeding a lot, I take a shower and get dressed ...
As I did to hide the cuts
When I was looking for clothes to wear, I started crying because I did not know what to do to hide the cuts, was an unbearable heat, plus the only way to hide was wearing a long-sleeved jacket, when I entered the house of my helena aunt, she looked at me as if not understanding, but by the look of it, had already to realize that she was suspicious why was this enormous heat and I was coat, so she came to me and asked, are you cold ?
I replied: Yes
I was very scared her out because she did not want to hurt her with it.
Tomorrow I'll talk: how I talk to her, as I was after what she said and what I said to her