Some days it sneaks up on you, the darkness envelops all . Like a thief in the night it's steals your joy. Most times there's no warning, it's on you before you can blink twice . Science has a name for it, depression. There are several different medications a well-meaning doctor will prescribe to treat you, but then you become dependent on a foreign substance in your body to control your thoughts . This medication changes things. This medication changes you. It's not natural, it's not normal, and it is never good . One day you wake up and decide that you want to come out on the other side of this depression. You decide that you want to take your life back into your hands and make all the decisions yourself. You no longer wish to have a foreign substance controlling your every thought . That's when it gets really fun. Detoxing from an antidepressant was one of the hardest things I've ever done . I had some of the most crazy side effects, and several times I questioned whether my body and my mind would ever return to normal . It's taking me about six weeks and I finally am beginning to feel like myself again. Ival that I will never let another well-meaning doctor prescribe a medication that will control me . I am in control of my heart, my body, and my thoughts . I am healthy, I am whole. And slowly I am finding joy in my life again. There is hope, there is help.