Definitely keep writing mate. You have a real gift for it.

Just know that things can get better, but you’re right that you have to make them better yourself.

My situation only improved after I worked my ass off to make it better while ignoring the well meaning advice of those around me.

I don’t know if you remember my comment from almost a year ago but I now make a nice income and am no longer a burden to my wife. We’re much happier now. So things can and do improve. Once you work out how they need to improve.