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Do you ever kind of stop and ask yourself - when was the last time I was truly happy?
Or maybe; is it normal to fell this dull - all the time?
In an ever-so-growing concept of a globally spread depression, born from ill derived individualism and a general lack of communication, It would be silly to just have a one type of depression.
In THIS ONLINE TEST you can check out a more specific diagnosis of your depression, based on your answers.
It seems that Dysthimia is a high result for me.
Dysthymia, or dysthymic disorder, is a clinical diagnosis of moderate, persistent depression. Sufferers do not routinely experience the extremes of major depression, but the duration can be much longer. Dysthymia does not often inhibit normal activities.
( source: www.depressedtest.com )
Ahh.
This is what got me writing this post in the first place.
Things are not black and white.
Everything is in between-
from the slightest to the most intense.
The over-dramatization of the classical depression made us all miss the point - that being- that the most of us are actually in this constant void.
It is a void between going to work;
but not being actually there.
A void between buying a bus ticket
but swallowing a big gulp of anxiety in your throat.
Seeing your day-to-day struggles,
but not having the strength to face them.
Dreaming of a better you one day,
but engaging in self-defeat.
It seems that life is
too long for grieving
and to short for happiness.
I suppose in this road we all take
It's not the fear of forward that stops us;
rather the burden of the things behind
that formed us in the first place.
See you soon.
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2|30 a_PATTERN
3|30 a_RANDOM
4|30 a_CENTER
5|30 a_MAZE
6|30 a_HOLE
7|30 a_WAVE
8|30 a_COLOR
9|30 a_FRACTAL
10|30 a_SEQUENCE
11|30 a_SCHEME