Steemit is a good platform to vent your frustrations, but it doesn't beat one-on-one help. As you said:

> I tell my mom. "I need help. .I need to talk to someone about my deppression."

Please consider the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

• 1-800-273-8255
  Available 24 hours everyday

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Best of luck.