It has been a long wait from my last dialysis session and now it is the middle of the week, a hump day Wednesday. I should have get dialyzed yesterday but I have to painfully wait until now because it was my regular schedule.
If only I have at least a rolling dialysis schedule of every two days but that seems to be impossible since at some days would definitely fall on a Sunday which is a day where dialysis stops which should not be the case because dialysis is regularly needed by the patients.
So we have to conform in that norm that if it is a Sunday all dialysis sessions stops because it is a rest day.
My hands are tied in getting a thrice per week sessions because of the financial burden that it will incur to me not to mention the time that we have to spend since my parents have to prepare before we head on to the hospital and I feel that I would wear my parents off if I do decide for a more frequent dialysis sessions.
I also do not like going to the dialysis center if not for the relief that dialysis gives to my body which is a factor that draws me at dialysis again and again simply because I do not want to drown on my own body fluids and die a lingering death.
I actually do not know what to do as my father would also protest about the idea because of the above mentioned reasons. My father seemed to not know the extent of what I am going through all these years even though he knows that I am in a hardship but not really had done something about it except to drive me to and from the dialysis centers but I do not blame him because not all people have the same capacities to deal about things.
But I hope that I could come-up with a better solution so that I won't feel much worse in-between my dialysis session days like today that I can't wait to get dialyzed again because I am just feeling literally toxic and also congested much with fluids.