on wednesday, i took 2 massive tokes of dmt thru my friend's 'dab' set up. immediately after the second hit, i felt like i was dying. the world was disintegrating around me, the room i was in became this intensely multicolored space made out of every shape and pattern possible. i kept focusing on my breathing. i kept saying to myself "in thru the nose, out thru the mouth. in thru the nose, out thru the mouth. in thru nose the mouth out thru into nose mouth out in....there is no nose, there is no mouth"
it was at this moment when it felt like the vibration of the universe stopped and everything was completely still. i didnt exist as my self but instead as all things. i was experiencing the past, the present, the future, all matter, all energy, all possibilities. the only way i can describe it was i became infinity. it felt like i was always this 'infinity' and always will be. now im a stone cold atheist, so god is not the right word but its the only one that fits. but i felt like i am god itself. but not just me...everyone. everything. every bit of matter that exists in this infinity is god itself and we arrange our self in these insane complex ways to experience our self.
i was in this space for about 2 minutes of real time but it might as well have been eternity. i slowly came out of this state and returned to my friends room which was barely recognizable with all the visual effects but all i could do was sit up, look straight ahead and ponder what i had just experienced. the fact that the visual effects i was experiencing were so insane meant absolutely nothing because the place i just exited was the most profound place imaginable.
i basically sat and stared straight ahead for about 10 minutes before i attempted to tell my friends what just happened to me. its impossible to explain but i tried my best then, and im trying my best now.
i would love to know if anyone else reached this point because it feels like i reached the absolute peak of enlightenment. there just cant be anything outside of where i was, because i was everywhere at all times. anyway thanks for reading, and i hope this thread can stimulate a cool discussion.