As I was leaving the house today to go to the bank, grocery store, and post office...I turn around and see these lil’ bastards seeing me off. Finn our new kitten who is an asshole, my old girl Bindi who is half clueless, and my young girl Maya who is just rambunctious and full of energy. It makes me feel bad leaving them at times when they just come to the door and stare as I disappear to complete life’s daily tasks.
It’s nowhere near as bad as when I had the full pack of 4 and the moment I stepped out, they would start howling at the moon. That was awesome and funny as hell but also made me sad in a way. My pack and I were insanely close. Probably as close a bond I’ll ever have with any pups so to have them send me off to some howling felt good in one aspect. I knew they loved me and that was their way of letting me know yet it also made me regret leaving as I saw that they were slightly upset. It would only last a minute or two and I always cherished it.
At the time I never really thought of it...the reality that it wouldn’t last forever. When Bandit passed, a huge void was left in the pack but they still howled...mainly because Tano was the ring leader and instigator. With Tano’s passing just 2 weeks ago tomorrow, there is nobody to start and continue the howling. It just now ceases to exist. That is a tremendous bummer and downer. I guess now I’ll have to settle for sad looks out the front door...
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