So I don't crack. Steemit will keep me sane! We are having our steady precarious situation on the homefront right now. We are afraid we are being underpaid in the 3D world here. My number arranged in the letters of my name owes a tonne of cash cabbage to a corporation the gov't. Don't want to go underfed, afraid. Negotiations are open here in the work sphere but maybe the razors edge. We are going in debt while we are working for a job for an insurance construction gig. Yet we have no back up if a franchise decided not to call us. Afraid to negotiate you see. No backup.
In the meantime loading credit cards for materials we need for jobs we will get paid a few weeks after each. Tight. Sometimes feels like you are just getting your last bit of time in..stretching it out a bit longer...before you apply for welfare. We ran out of work in our previous construction jobs. Put so far back from family crises. How does one get society to understand for compensation lets say. Not handout. It turns into a thought experiment. You still gotta stand tall and speak up for yourself in the field.
It can be confusing and stressful. Just the way economics is set up. The way the job system works. It seems if you get down, you really get down, and the government or corporations don't care a bit. It can feel like that. Faceless and empty. Scary. Hold on there, don't crack. Ok I can freak out without cracking. If thats how I feel I can be real with those feelings
After awhile you calm down and learn how to interact to make contract for work. Of course no one wants to feel underpaid and hold onto a job cause that's all you got. Theres some real life stuff there. It's under current social conditions. I don't want to crack ever and be anti-social. I also have an aversion to what I perceive as anti-social that some may try and name anti-social but it's more of a frustration over de-based forms of group dynamics. Want to keep it clean and be on good behavior
This is my timeout! This is my timeout here! This is my freakout sphere! It's not to troll. Please just please the troll and be on your way. OOOh the bahumbuggary of it all!! Sometimes you can feel trapped and not know what to do. Yet we know on these current jobs maybe we are doing a better job than we realise and the business doesn't want want to lose us. So perhaps they are giving us all these jobs, even if they are not ideal, to keep us busy cause they know we haven't been working. Sometimes you can make a switch. But it rely's on building the switch from scratch. Can't depend on anyone making it for you. You realise your mood, you take a step outside of yourself and look at your situation. Then you come back to it afresh and try again. Habits are hard to break. Try another method. It can be hard to do but it's worth it to stay sane