First, you are absolutely right, speed is not addictive. It is, however, habit-forming in a big way. The difference? Some serious chemical changes with the former that require time and effort to reverse, as against "I like this shit, I don't want to give it up." Not a very technical explanation, but I believe an accurate one. Speed is just so easy to like.

I like speed. It makes me normal. I get the jaw, and then I just zone in on something for hours. Eventually I will become me again and fall asleep.

Once I found a huge textbook on welding, read it from cover to cover. I went from someone who could tack under supervision to a pretty good welder overnight. I needed experience to make it stick, so that now I am at least reasonable at ark and TIG, passable at gas because I didn't get enough practice, and crap at MIG because I didn't like it to begin with.

As I said, I_like_ speed. It could easily have become a habit I did not want to break. The solution for me was that I would not buy speed. If you want to give me a rock of that crystal, thank you very much. I'll wrap it and neck it, or in your parlance make a bomb. I prefer blues, by the way. If you want to give me some in exchange for a favour, again I will neck it. Cash will not be part of the proceedings.

Do not inject speed. Most of my speed freak friends were on the needle. The rush is incredible and very hard to resist. That is how to guarantee you'll be back again and again and again. Snorting is less problematic in that department, but it destroys your nose.

It sounds like the crystal you had was close to pure, with no nasty additions. I met a chemist once who produced meth like that. He wanted me to shoot up, but I refused. I said I would happily neck some, or I could leave if that made him more comfortable. He passed me some powder and skins and I made a pretty sizable bomb.

Several hours later I thanked the man for his hospitality and headed home, about an hour's drive. I was halfway home when I figured out why everything was so fluid. I have never had speed that good before or since.

Trust me, I'm a doctor.