Who Am I? How do I identify with myself?

I hate to use labels and I have been given a few labels over the years, mostly because of where I was born, how I dress, what I eat and especially now because of how I live. Labeling to me, feels like I am being placed in a box, it is way too confiding and I do not like to be contained. I do of course identify with certain ideologies, but do not try and put a label on me or you will feel the heat of my fire.

I am an earthling, I feel pretty comfortable with that term, for now, why because it feels very inclusive and also because I am of the Earth.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I struggle a lot with any sort of divide, I hate to see this segregation that has encompassed the earth and I really try my best to just live above all of that. But even though I try, I sometimes find these ingrained thoughts that just pop into my head, things I heard in the past when I was younger, things that my family carried with them. I used to get really annoyed by them, but now I just breath them out, they serve no purpose in my life and the best thing to do, is just be aware of them and let them go.

Letting go seems to be the major theme in my life at the moment. But in letting go I am opening up the doors to receive. And there is so much to receive in the world. It is up to each of us, how we wish to see the world, how we wish to see the part we play, in achieving what it is we want. We receive back, what it is we send out. Which means we all need to be proactive and take responsibility for our actions. The universe really does look after those who look after her.

I live my life being true to who I am. I do of course struggle at times with things that come up in my life, but that is just how things are. I accept that my life is unpredictable and I really would not want it any other way. For sure nature follows certain patterns, certain cycles, as do I, but within all of those are the moments that take us by surprise, that challenge us and teach us, that really allow us to grow. These moments that take us to great heights and down into the dark depths of our being and all of them make me who I am.

The light and the darkness, I need them both and everything in between. The only constant thing in life is change and when we embrace that, then we embrace what it is to be alive. Finding your way, to ride those waves of change is so important. I have my way and that suits me, but I can not tell anyone else how they should. Because that is part of our learning, part of what makes us become more comfortable with who we are. We need to allow ourselves to feel and experience, everything that comes with change.

Of course some days are easier than others, when it comes to me feeling comfortable with who I am. There is always that little voice in my head, which likes to jump onto certain things and twist them a little. But that is part of being a human I guess, this battle we have with ourselves to be more aware and less judgemental of ourselves and others. The voice that may or may not be my friend, but is very much a part of who I am. Another part of me that i need to embrace, to accept and let be. Indeed we can spend too much time trying to fix things, when instead we could just accept them for what they are and move on.