Everyone has a story, but I bet you haven't heard one like this one. To understand you have to have some background information.
I grew up in a small town out in the middle of nowhere, the nearest store was 5 miles away and we were surrounded by nothing but farm land. My earliest memories go back to about 4 years old when my Dad left us and never returned. Being the only boy in the family with 2 sisters and a Mom, you can say I was devastated. This was the time in my life that I feel caused me to take all of the paths that I chose from this point forward. Everything I learned from this point forward was from observing others. Not having a father in your life is like a solar system without any planets, your just a void floating around in the abyss taking in everything that is thrown at you, not knowing right from wrong or good from bad. Every person my Mom tried to bring into my life, I would instantly reject because I believe I learned that it's easier to not get attached to someone than it is to hurt from being left abandoned. I found myself rebelling against anything and anyone of authority. I clung to any person my own age that would show me attention.. This was my biggest downfall. By age 14 I had been to Juvenile detention multiple times for stealing, vandalizing property and just acting out against everyone that tried to teach me right from wrong. Every time I got in trouble the Juvenile Judge would let me off easy and I never learned to make better choices. I would steal anything I could get my hands on, I worked a ton of short term jobs and I did everything I could to get what I wanted without any true effort. By the time I turned 18 I found myself in County Jail for the first time, this was the scariest thing I had every experienced, but it was still no bad enough to get me to change my behavior. I was smoking pot and using all kinds of drugs to try to forget about the pain I was in. I continued this behavior even though the consequences were getting worse every time I got in trouble. I didn't care, life had no meaning to me, I didn't care if my life ended. As far as I was concerned I could have died any day and it wouldn't have mattered. I was on a destructive path of no return. This is just the beginning of my story, follow me to see where this goes. Your in for the ride of your life.