Dear Followers, If your read my previous posts, you might know that I was preparing myself to go Thailand for Volunteering with kids in village area, Thailand. Opportunity I applied for. I asked on steemit to support me so I can go Thailand from my personal fund and also got huge support from you who generously upvoted for me. I feel very sorry that I will not able to go Thailand.

It is not first time I was rejected for visa to participate in any global program. In the above picture, You can see my fundraising page for World Merit UK- 2017 program. I had raised around £ 600 online for the 10 days long program participation but The UK Embassy was not satisfied with different conditions. Like Financial Positions, Family ties and so on. I don't know what actually wrong going on from myself.

Not Only UK and Thailand. I was rejected by USA in 2016 and Spain 2015 . In USA, I supposed to join World Bank youth forum 2016

The program was held in World Bank head office in Washington DC. The USA Embassy did not said any reason of visa cancellation.

In 2014, I wanted to go Spain to present my research paper when I was a student. My university sponsored me so I can present my paper there. But the embassy said, the feel doubt about whether I will leave the territory before the date of visa expire. They feel doubt about me ! Why ?

I asked my teacher who said to change my name "Mohammed " . I replied why my name is a problem if Muhammad Yunus, Nobel Prize winner from Bangladesh can travel any country ? He said Muhammad Yunus already a popular person and he achieved his position so most embassy knows about him. You are trying to help people when you have no Position. You are not Government employee, not private company employee . You have no designation . Embassy will judge you "Who you are" instead "What you do" . First find a good career for yourself and then when you think now you have money and position to help people then go ahead.

Well then what happened if I don't help the kids and women when they have no hope except me ? Should I stop ? I am not a person to give up and I truly not work to care embassies and their holy rules. I care about the cause I stand for. May be I will not about to achieve global experiences and skill I needed to be a good leader and build network with youth people. But don't care. Allah is only enough to help.

The word Mohammed is really a problem ? I was shocked when I went to apply for Bank account. I was not sure why my bank account was not prepared yet. I was waiting for two hours. The account manager said "Your name is listed in terrorist list so we are trying to let the agencies know you are not the person who are in the terrorist list." . I was laughing a little when it case was solved.

I already have paid 15000 BDT to AIESEC Bangladesh which is non-returnable fee for volunteering Thailand.

I already have paid for my Insurance for trip in Thailand. Now what should I do? I don't know. I have no time to reapply for visa as it should start from 19 January, 2018.

I didn't get chance to explore my probabilities and this is why I expectation from embassies is now limited.

In 2018, World merit asked me to apply for their Philippine or UK program. But I decided to apply for Philippine as UK visa will be very hard for me. But now I decided not to apply for Philippine also as I already know what my position deserves from embassy.

I supposed to apply for the 11th Commonwealth Youth Forum 2018, UK but I didn't apply just because I will not get visa. The deadline was 2 December. So funny it will be if I apply and try to grab opportunities as youth activist.

Here is yesterday picture (2 January,2108 ) from my Hive account@womenempowerment project after I got my passport from Thailand embassy. We allocated new sharee for underprivileged women. I am happy ! Not upset ! no Worry and time to change plan not vision.