I can empathize with you and tell you from experience that you will only grow from this and realize this is part of life. In some ways, you are like an athlete who gave of his/her self for years and was really good at that particular sport. But an injury occurs or you are just no longer good enough to compete. What do you do? You take those same competitive skills and desire to learn and grow and move on in life. You are way to young to see this...but this may happen to you 3-4 times in life....it's part of growing and overcoming ...I believe you will look back at this and smile.