So this morning I packed my 11 year off to his new senior school. My 4 year old will be having her first day at primary school on Thursday. My intention is that the time they have at school is time for me, to rest recover and review our lives and where we steer our focus.
I had a dream about 6 months ago where I believe that Yah was telling me He wanted me to Home school the children. I heard that all they really need to learn is the Word and everything else the world teaches is pointless.
Ive not had the best time being a stay at home mum. Having not such a happy childhood, I've carried bagage into my parenting that manifests as opressive and depressive feelings. I have discovered that this isnt me fundementally but something ive learnt. And growth has come in those painful times, and issues are being prunned out. I had the intention to be an example that I’d want my children to follow. So how do I justify sending my children to school and stay in the integrity of following Yah’s word? Wisdom is needed and the weightier matter here is unity with my husband. Also being in a place where I can provide a stable and peaceful environment for my children to thrive in. I trust Yah’s timing. That when the door is opened I will be aware and able to walk through it without doubt. We need to test all things and a dream and a ideology have to stand and be confirmed, especially with big decisions. I have a dream and I won’t be prayimg for patience but mutuality and unity with my husband, that will be the confirmation needed. As I sit here on the sofa with octonauts on the TV I am grateful that even though I know years of sleep deprivation has had its toll on my health mentally and physically, I feel a peace that passes understanding. I have a hope of a blessed life. A trust that my dreams are glimpses of a bigger & higher purpose that is more fulfilling that anything I could accomplish alone.