The hardest thing to do when those thoughts arise is to reach out to someone. For some reason, we feel shame. And to a certain extent, it makes us feel we are not deserving of help or a friendly hand. But you are. And I am. And everyone else who suffers through depression and anxiety is. We all deserve help if it is needed. What has helped me is finding something I enjoy doing. Photography, graphic design, going for a run...all hobbies that I enjoy and raise levels of endorphins. If someone hasn't told you today you are awesome, let me be the first to tell you. You're a rockstar! Find a hobby. Change your lifestyle if it's hindering you and find the beauty in everything, even the difficult parts. One love, friend.