You know those days or those times when you don’t know what to do? You keep thinking that even quenches your brain to think harder about what should be done; Still, nothing comes to mind. That’s why you decided to forget it and just let it be. You’re staring at something but actually it’s not what you’re seeing you’re focused on but of what’s inside your mind. I am like that when there’s not many customers for how many hours.
“At the shore, watching the beautiful ocean while soaking my feet in the seawater. Remembering those days while everything seems lighter because of no obligations and responsibilities yet. Not that young but not that old to have many worries in life. Full of laughter with nonsense conversations because what’s in mind was to make sure to have fun.”
“There’s that time as well enjoying the swimming days from fishing. There was Father, Joemar and me, riding a small fishing boat going to the deeper part of the sea but not that deep to drop the fishing net. I was 15 years old back then, while Joemar, who is my younger brother, was just 7 years old and obviously when Father was still alive; He was 60 years old that time. Yes, we didn't have an easy life but we had an amazing life.”
These are just some of my imagination when I got bored and didn’t know what to do. Not feeling good to use a mobile phone or to watch movies. I just let my thoughts wander like I was in my solitude. Even me, I don’t understand myself being that way. All of a sudden I’d feel sad without any exact reason and then there’s that good feeling that I wanted to keep moving; Nothing, just feeling happy.
When I've done that, I’d like to remember the past. It helps me to relieve the stress I’m feeling because sometimes I get exhausted - I’m too tired to keep going especially when watching over the store. So many worries in me that sometimes I was having trouble breathing; No one was to blame but just me when I thought of many things that weren't there.
So yeah, imagination is just one of the things I’m doing while staying at the store. It makes me happy but sometimes it makes me lonely because I’m quite far from home but I accepted the kind of life I’m in. It just happens sometimes but there's no regret of course since this is the kind of life that I’m building my own family.
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