Once again, I am asking myself BIG life questions.
Things like :
What am I doing with my life? If my life stays the same, will I still be content in five years time? What do I want my body to look like in twenty years time? Am I bringing value to the world? Am I made for a standard life?
And all the weird ifs and buts that come with having these thoughts.
Yay to being a deep thinker and constantly analyzing myself and checking in with my priorities.
Also fuck damn, it is sometimes so effing tiring to be such a pensive brain-person who has to think of these things.
Certainly because I feel like a walking contradiction.
And also,
An alien in the midst of all these so-called normal people.
Like the idea of living in the same house for the next 20 years, staying in the same job and doing the whole society-wanted steps of ‘get married, have kids, work on your pension’ shit just makes me want to curl into a ball, cry my eyes out and just depresses the fuck out of me.
I literally cannot fathom the idea of having a ‘normal’ city life.
It just does not compute in my brain.
And then the question pops up : why wouldn’t I be able to do that? Is there something wrong with me? Do I have this special gene that would never be satisfied with anything in life?
The fear creeps into my brain and throat and makes me feel suffocated and weird and as if I don’t belong in this world.
And it just hits me.
It’s because I don’t.
I don’t belong in this world.
Or rather, the world isn’t made for me.
And that is ACTUALLY a good thing.
Sure, I can play the game for a little while. Maybe a couple of years.
It’s not easy. Cos I can’t get comfortable in it.
I can sort of lie to myself to enjoy it but when I look deep into my lioness heart, I see that this is not going to cut it.
Nope. Nein. Nee. A big fat NO!
And then everything HAS to change.
But I’ve finally come to the realization (Hello becoming older and wiser!) that I am not going to play the game anymore.
Actually, I CANNOT play the game anymore.
And I need to stop effing trying to make myself try to fit a mold that just wasn’t made for me.
By the lovely 
So what do I do?
Well, I’ve got to align myself into creating my life the way I want to have it.
Now I don’t know details but what I do know is this :
I need freedom
I need love
I need to be international
I need to enjoy myself
I need fairness, decency and truth.
I need to make a sum of money that I can live a good life
Nothing majorly crazy, just sweet easy living
I need to create
I need to help other people
I need to be my own boss
So here is where my entrepreneurial spirit kicks in.
Cos I am actually a pioneer and an entrepreneur at heart, I just haven’t had the right tools to do it yet.
UNTIL NOW.
Of course, Steem is my gateway to creating a life where my entrepreneurship can really thrive and move at the space that feels aligned with how I am and the things I stand for.
This place is evolving, moving and fluid.
Not static and rigid like the system that currently has it’s hold over our society.
Now, this is not some announcement on my newest business Steem venture.
Cos there isn’t one in the making atm.
Or maybe there is? But I just don’t know about it.
This is a soft launch.
A setting-of-an-intention.
A clearing-of-one’s-mind-to-start-the-creation-of-something.
A dipping-a-toe-in-the-steem-entrepreneurship.
Because the first step has already been taken!
Since last week, I have a Steem assistant! (YAY!)
His account is 
I have all these jobs related to my own blog and 
And by delegating it to Tp, I am freeing myself up of more time to focus on the things I want to focus on and I am helping someone feed themselves.
He is Steeming fulltime so each SBD is damn precious.
As a boss (oh gosh, that feels weird to write down) I believe in honesty, truth and fairness.
Therefore I discuss the price of each task that he does for me, we communicate openly and when I thrive, he will thrive (and anyone else I end up hiring).
I have ALWAYS had this idea that I want my business ventures to super fair to everyone involved so I’ve always wanted to work with percentages except pay per hour or task.
Which isn’t what we are doing right now, but is something I will slowly be working towards.
And I know that this totally can work on the Steem blockchain!
For example, let’s say I start a Steem venture and I have 3 people working on that for and with me.
Their pay will not be determind by how much they earn per hour or task.
Their pay will be determind by how much SBD and Steem is coming into the business.
They will all get a percentage of the income coming in.
So yes this can change every day/week/month yet this (to me) is the fairest way of working together.
If I thrive, you thrive.
Simple as that!
I am mega excited about this journey I am embarking on.
I am super happy with my lovely assistant.
If any of you have been thinking of taking on an assistant to help out with your blogs/Steem ventures, DO IT!
You’ll be wondering why you didn’t do it earlier!
Let’s really start using this blockchain for good shit and making real positive change to people’s lives.
Here’s to entrepreneurship 2.0 (The Steem Way)
BIG love,
Ashley
My LoveProject is