We were together for a few months, held hands wherever we went by, laughed and ate together, rode in a vehicle, watched movie, explored new places, bought new things at the mall, and went to the hospital.
I was hurt many times before, hopeless, desperate and depressed to find love. Tears just flowed down waited for the right one as I begged above. I admit, I was chewed by my hopelessness and negative mindset caused by my dark past. It gave me trauma and mindset I could never find love because trusting a person over and over again, the thing I really doubted to do. Surely, heartbroken people can relate this. When we are pained by the past, it steals our hopes to find someone we can have and who can have us no matter who we are. But life is a turning wheel. We never know when we are up or down and it is full of surprises.
The first time I met him, I wasn’t sure of he was the one. I was nervous if he liked me because he has a high standard for women. I was certain that when he met me, he would be colder because my appearance cannot be qualified. And I am crazy too, caused by my past. But then, I never knew he was nervous too. He thought how come a young pretty girl be in love to an old man.
On the first day of meeting each other, I never expected he brings lots of chocolates for me and would pull my chair closer to him as we eat in the restaurant. But then I still didn’t trust him. After our date for the first day, I went back home with the chocolates he bought for me, for my mom, and for my little sister. He brought me to the main road to halt vehicle and when I went back home, I got his email that I never replied. In the morning, he messaged me to go out again. He said I was slow to prepare because he waited from the time he woke up.
After those days, we began to know more with each other. We never fought since we met and comfortable with each other. Before those meetings happened, I asked God to give me signs if he is for me coz if not, I just go back home and would refuse his invitations for date and I wouldn’t care if he meets other women to stay for long or went back to his place. But then, the way he treated me seems like a good sign. I never experienced it in my past. And then we were together for a long time until time came he needed to come back in his place. I cried because I knew him so well and we created moments together.
When you are hurt right now, keep calm and relax. Life is complicated if you don’t trust above’s plan. Every goodbye doesn’t really mean a pain, but it is an opendoor for hope. Imagined, if there was no goodbye that happened in my dark past, I surely struggle the characters of a person I don’t like these days. I surely struggle the hard life these days.
If your relationship ends up suddenly, just inhale and exhale. I know it hurts but think of it, tomorrow is another day. Just close your eyes right now but be bright tomorrow for tomorrow, God has new surprises for you. You may not see it but you can do that when you value small things.
Don’t be in pain when someone leaves you but rejoice, God is greater than your problem. Other people have greater problems than you, you are blessed. Other people are anxious dealing with their lifetime expensive medical supports and serious illness.
Don’t rush to gain someone’s love but know him and be yourself to find out if he will love you the way you are.
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