It is natural for you to have a different perspective now. You had a different perspectives before. You are always evolving and progressing.
Ignored emotions only grow stronger and louder. Your feelings are speaking to you, you just must listen to them.
Once you were able to endure or even enjoy situation like that, but because you have changed and your emotions have too, you must be really honest with yourself, and take an inventory of how you are feeling right now.
You don’t have to drastic resort action to resolve anything. It is enough just to acknowledge your own feelings, so that your heart feels understood.
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