After I lived it, it turned out that all my negative thoughts were wrong. All I can pass and friends who at first thought I wanted to drop me turned out they were supportive and sure that I would be able to do it. One of my friends named Nunung once said his trust in me like this "You are a crazy person but responsibility, I see there is a soul leader in you", hearing that I do not believe, that other people can entrust a responsibility to me, a person who is ignorant and difficult to be serious. It really is a statement that I never expected from someone.