Dear steemians,
How can I forget everything, when people who sincerely love us but we choose other people. But when we understand, what remains is only regret. He is not a good and romantic person but he is a man who always managed to make me a cheerful person and truly lonely when he was not with him. When I write this, I remember everything, and in my heart I can only say if I am very sorry. And what is the meaning of a regret if everything can't be repeated and corrected again.
Increasing age is always thinking who I will marry. Always curious about the man who might be my life mate. Honestly I find it hard to forget, the shadow always appears in my head. My biggest mistake is to allow you to be present in my life when there are men who already exist before filling my heart. This is a punishment for me that is too greedy. But, I also can't do anything when everything flows just like that, love that appears naturally that grows every day. At this time I can only blame myself, because I chose the wrong person.
From all of that I understand that rightly said people, loving it does not have to have. Several times I tried to calm myself, trying to forgive myself and try hard to forget it. But the more I tried it the more my love would increase and only could be accompanied by memories that once existed.
If if a miracle comes, he asks me to come back, will I accept it gladly? Then feel my prayer has been answered? Maybe the answer is no. Because I want him to approach another woman first who can be used as a material consideration for choosing a companion for his life in the future or telling him if you have trusted me and not remember and bring up my mistakes in the past, my heart's door is always open for him.
Then? What about the man who is currently filling my days?
I'm bored and tired of facing his attitude, I'm too tired to always give in and try to be someone who always understands it with all conditions. Not that I betrayed him, but I tried to think logically, then when I had to continue to succumb in all circumstances.
I don't want to compare them, here I try to tell about my regret that people say always comes late. From here I learned a lot to be more selective in choosing men who want to fill my heart and my days. If one day I was met with my soul mate, maybe I would take care of him, and involve God in my relationship with him.
So what should I do now?
I improve myself, learn more mature and accept the situation. There's no way I'm always imprisoned by my regret. Later, if my soul mate has come, I'm ready and trying to be the best for him and love him with all my heart.
Regretful but can improve yourself to be needed.