Hello friends. Please excuse me while I take a personal moment here. (don't worry I won't go on for too long) My heart is heavy and my mind full of many emotions from the thoughts racing. Approaching is the death-aversary of my dear mother. This past year since moving, I have found myself struggling with those events...moments that tend to strike the one during the first period of a sad loss. Thanksgiving and Christmas I found myself eagerly wanting Drew and I to do something. Even if it was merely a special dinner of those yummy foods we all tend to enjoy during holidays.
(One of the places she rests)
The past few days my dreams have been filled with her face. So vivid that it engulfs you into the most surreal dream. A moment in time where it feels so real....like you're actually there with her. It's a great feeling to know I truly haven't forgotten her face and the sound of her voice....and to a degree, the touch of her hand. To some that may sound very odd and unlikely. For me, this is awesome yet painful. I miss her so much.
(first time she learned to use chopsticks. she was so excited, she had to have a pic)
She passed away July 4th, 2012 while we were out hiking the Appalachian Trail. A trip in which she was our prime supporter. I was blessed to have spoken with her the day before. I remember her first care package to us. Way too much food for us to really carry, but inside she had a special treat of homemade cookies. Who doesn't feel extra motivation to make it up that mountain with mom's homemade chocolate chip cookies?! Lol And as a bit of a token to her, we spread her ashes along the trail the second year we went back out. I made sure she touched every state we did and placed her in some of my favorite places. I also made sure to hug both of the largest oak trees, one of which holds her ashes. (tree shown below)
I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for her. And I wanted to share that with everyone. Love you so much beautiful woman!
(the time she told me I made her beautiful)
May this be a reminder to stop now and again in our busy lives and remember to reach out to those we love. Say hello and let them know you're thinking about them. One day you'll realize it means more than you think.
Thanks for listening and take care!
