It is exhausting. It is. I keep trying to invest in "fighting back" because I have to. If I fail, I have to look back and say that I tried otherwise, it'll be basically regret and torture for the rest of my life. I can't do that. But I know it's exhausting. It is.

I also know you can't speak freely. You want to! Trust me, I know. It's difficult. How do you have a safe outlet without getting into trouble?

For me -- I put on the mask. It's just the way it has to be for now.