To talk about what is now I have to go back to the beginning, which is around a year ago...
After my first year of University, failing my course, I decided to leave as it would just be a waste of money and time to carry on. I was never a big fan of school with all the studying and exams. At that point I thought I was just lazy, yes perhaps. But now I believe we do not come down onto this earth to waste our time with this generalised education system and then work the rest of our lives. Where is the joy? The real joy?
Some people like it. I do not. I want to go an independent way, express myself and create things that include the truth of life.
So after this first year I went back to where I was born: Hamburg, Germany. To get a job, earn some money and see what comes.
A few months later of not doing anything I got my CV ready and went to a work place to apply to.
On the way there I got a phone call from my University back in London asking me if I'm gonna carry on as I haven't withdrawn yet. They told me I could repeat my first year if I wanted to. I was surprised but glad at the same time as my life in Hamburg was quite dull and lonely. If I wouldn't have been so 'lazy' to change my English SIM card to a German one I would've never gotten that call.
I thought I'd never go back, but after such a boring summer I didn't care. I organised to go back to University.
"Unfortunately" I missed my first flight, having to take another air plane a couple days later.
I also didn't have a secure place to stay at, only one to look at and decide there.
When I finally arrived at that place it was a no go. The contract and conditions weren't acceptable. I called and messaged some people I hung out with a few times in the previous year, seeing where they live and if I can stay a while till I find a place.
I was "lucky" and somebody took me in. He was living near our University so I could easily walk to my first lecture the next morning.
When I got there, nobody but one other girl was outside the room waiting. We went to the reception to ask if they knew anything: the lecturer sent an email to the students saying he can't make it. Right after that I saw a guy that I "coincidentally" met when I was too drunk with a friend one time and he and his girlfriend were nice enough to take us back to Uni in a cab.
I told him my living condition, which at some point changed my life. He told his flatmate (Alan) about it, who had the idea that I could move in with them. Their third flatmate just moved out to go back to his home country, meaning there was an empty room.
Everything was sorted and I finally had a place to stay.
Living there, I spent quite a lot of time with Alan who I also knew from the year before. What I didn't know is that he fancied me that whole time. So he asked me out a month later of moving in with them and now he's been my boyfriend for almost a year.
And since then I started to believe in fate as there was so many small events that made me get to that one exact point, meeting the love of my life as I believe. Now he is a very big part of my life and we've been living together since then, trying to figure out what to do with our lives. We both left Uni as we both just think it's a waste of our time eventually. We both are interested in creating something ourselves through film, etc..
He helped me realise a lot of things, learn more about myself and also given me more of an idea what's really out there.
We still have a long way to go but we're going it together, becoming the best we can be.
Our goal is to experience this life to the fullest and truly love ourselves and each other.
