you should always take a second when you feel lost and just sit there and not listen to a hole lot of things there world is trying to convince you with negatively. join the crew and take time to relax leave the premises and go open your mind.
there is once that you could do good in the world so you need to the mature one out of the bunch and take order give yourself what you want don't let them tell you what you want it isn't anyone who knows what you want only you do.
your mind engineers the world what are you buzzy working on?