I am not sure if I am writing this for myself or others. Reassurance perhaps? I am not sure.
But while I am falling from the face of the earth, the views are amazing. It reminds me of a Douglas Adams title, so long they say...
Either way, it has been a couple of months. That is the extent of the situation. It has been a couple of month.
In this time, so much has happened, and is still happening. And I am not sure how I feel about all of this. Things have never been this busy, productively, but it is draining. When you wake up only to realise how much has to be done by the end of the day, how much you need to process and complete... It is frustrating while at the same time being exciting.
Sink or swim, they say. So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish.
I guess me writing this is to just breathe a bit. To reassure myself that I am still alive and breathing. To show that I am not gone. But it is also to produce something that is not what I do academically. For the last couple of months, I have been writing non-stop. Some of the stuff I am proud of, some others not so much. It comes with the trade, I guess. The system is crumbling but we can only pick up the pieces and run with it.
Maybe this is just my way of trying to grab at something I used to enjoy, now falling and enjoying the views, but here I am, dipping my feet in the ocean of uncertainty again, standing at the edge, and enjoying the view.
My grandmother always said just keep jumping, and enjoy what you do (don't just do what you enjoy). And in that strange logic, I can at least say I am enjoying the fall.
I hope you are well.
The writing is my own, and the photograph was taken with my iPhone.