With a face that makes anybody guess that Adriel's mood is bad, the guy stepped out of the exam room. What happened over the weekend was really successful twisting his world in such a way. Adriel can not even remember what he just did in the exam room. The only thing that feels just a painful pulse that will not stop. he knows the pain is not from his organs, but because of the psychological influence of his brain reaction whenever he remembers how the two men kissed before his eyes.
God. What else is more pain than this? Adriel always thinks loving someone without getting a reply is something very painful. But it was not. Betrayed far more stabbing than just loving in silence.
The corridor is still quiet, as most of the other students are still struggling with paper sheets and pens to answer the exam questions. Of course. They definitely expect a lot for this semester. no need to get a perfect score, as long as the value index stays in a stable path, most of the students would have felt grateful. Unfortunately, Adriel is not that hopeless now. rather than good grades, Adriel is more likely to get excuses for not acting like a plunge from a height eg.
The stupid move took him to the canteen. Just like the corridor, the canteen was not so crowded. there are only one or two students who are still waiting for their exam schedules in the next slot, or some students either out of desperation or actually spending the night studying are staring at the ice in a glass or a piece of instant bread in a pack.
Then suddenly, Adriel's eyes find the figure of Kiara. Apparently, Kiara is also past a heavy weekend. The girl's face was pale. His lips are usually blushed by a sweep of lipbalm looks dry and cracked. dark shadows under his eyes indicate if the girl is sleep-deprived or perhaps crying too much. Adriel knows this will sound nasty, but he is glad there are others who are not being okay. Just like her.
No need to think twice for Adriel to walk up to Kiara. The girl gasped when she realized where Adriel was, but of course she could not run anywhere. going away would seem impolite, and Adriel knows Kiara hates doing things that offend others the most. although his face was not separated from an awkward expression, Kiara had time to give a false greeting that seemed fake to Adriel who now pulls a bench to sit next to him.
"Did you finish the exam?"
Kiara bit her lower lip. "Alright."
"I should not have asked," Adriel chuckled, though still grimly impressed. "Tara always says you're very smart. Just not good enough to hang out. "
"Tara is great at exaggerating things. he would have said so about me, since all this time the fate of the analysis of some of his duties depends on me. "
"I have to say that you are a very dedicated friend, Kiara," Adriel chuckled. "How are you Mika?" Adriel hates to mention Mika's name. Really.
"you probably already know,"
"Are you fighting?"
"I do not know," Kiara replied lethargicly. "I just ... Adriel, have you ever noticed that sometimes ... sometimes you do not quite deserve to be loved?"
"Often not so. what I'm experiencing is, often, I love people who are not good enough to be loved, "Adriel laughed sadly. "The situation is like a reverse huh? But I think the same to same. I feel you, "
Kiara does not smile. "Maybe."
"Lo already know if I like Kafka? Former Mika. "
Kiara nodded.
"i've been with Kafka."
Kiara's eyes were instantly rounded. "Congrats!" He said spontaneously.
"But really new, I see him kiss with other people."
Kiara's smile turned bitter. "Adriel,"
"And you know who it is?"such as ignoring Kiara's expression changes, Adriel went on.
"Who?" Kiara hesitated to ask, but eventually the word came out also from her mouth.
"Mika."
A second later, there was a wound that ran through Kiara's heart. The girl fell silent. either because of shock. Or because of wrath. Or because of sadness. Adriel does not know. But whatever the upheaval was, Adriel understood it. There was a storm now raging in Kiara's chest. the same storm that raged through Adriel's mind as he watched the scene live over the weekend. The storm eventually subsided, but always managed to leave a trail of wounds.
"Kiara," Adriel spoke after a few minutes of silence. but apparently, the time that has been rolling is not enough to help Kiara get back in control.
Kiara sighs, "sorry," she whispered in a muffled voice, which Adriel guess would soon turn into a sob.
"Do not apologize. It's not your fault. "
Adriel's answer made Kiara look up. Suddenly, Adriel fell silent. Like the loss of words, Kiara's eyes as clear as glass now made Adriel silent. The glass then cracks, breaks into a puddle that flows down Kiara's face in tears. Kiara's cries made Adriel think ... maybe it would be better if she did not discuss this with Kiara at all.
He should not be so selfish, to be willing to share his wounds with Kiara.
"Kiara," Adriel whispered softly. "Do not cry."
Instead of making Kiara silent, Adriel's words actually made Kiara sob more loudly. The girl cried until her shoulders shook, until Adriel felt she could not keep sitting still and watching the tears falling chasing on Kiara's cheeks. the boy got up, then reached out, letting Kiara cry in his arm.
Kiara's tears were warm when seeped in the sleeve of the varsity jacket Adriel was wearing. Adriel did not care even though the eyes of the people in the cafeteria were on him. he does not care if there is mis understanding spread. But Adriel regrets what he did.
What he keeps now is the wound. No one deserves it. And Adriel should not share it with Kiara.
It's a wound.
Adriel should have left her buried in the chest.
By the time Mika spotted the tall guy walking toward the parking lot, his quick, emotionally moving moves took him over to the guy in seconds. the adriel who had just pulled the car keys out of her jacket pocket did not expect to see Mika, then before she realized, Mika's fists had already hit her jaw. There was a widespread illness, centered at the point where Mika's hand was touching Adriel's face. but Adriel tried to refrain from showing any expression of pain, even with a rattle.
His eyes stared fiercely at Mika who still looked back at her angrily. some people who are around them and also who used to hang out around the park directly gathered. .whether they want to split up or just watch, but the gaze that Mika and Adriel show on them makes them decide to keep their distance and observe from afar.
"you do the same Kiara ?!" Mika asked in a sharp tone.
"I'm supposed to ask, do not you do my girl ?!" Adriel replied with a tone of voice that is not less high. "Your jealousy is not baseless, Mika. Foolish, if I have to be honest. lo to hurt Kiara with your own actions, but you do not want to bear that mistake, so you wreak everything on Kafka. Or on me. You are more bastard than the most awful person I've ever known! "
"What--"
"I saw everything," Adriel said again, making Mika's mouth gagged. "I see what you do with my girl at the bar the other day. I do not understand. You said you hate him. You says she already hurt Kiara. or whatever is your high school life story on which to be honest, do not really want me to know. But now, you realize not if the cause why Kiara crying is not Kafka, or I, but you own ?! "
"You ... do not tell me if you know Kiara all,"
"Really," Adriel's response made Mika glance. "really I who tell you everything. To be honest, I'm sorry. Why? Because Kiara looked so sick. She should not have to. Should be enough I wrote that feel. But you have to know, Mika. You have to know that from everyone who has ever been Kiara, your actions are one of the most unforgivable. "
"Adriel,"
"Do not ever dare to stick around in front of me again," Adriel stared intently. his words felt so piercing that Mika could do nothing but be silent. "From now on, you are not my friend. Because there is no friend who will kiss his friend's own girl. And after all your errors, you still dare not even me. You are the worst of the worst, "
Adriel looked at Mika hatefully, thinking that she would not be able to stare at it without feeling angry. Pathetic, remembering how the best moments during his college days he experienced with his gang of friends, where Mika is included there. but after all that happened, Adriel did not know what else to do. Adriel is not the type to give up easily, but also he is not a good person who can easily forgive.
Mika said nothing, did not even hold Adriel away when he decided to leave her. Adriel leaves Mika in broad steps and a roaring breath like a storm. Quickly, the guy found his car and went inside. mika merely watched him from the outside of the car, while Adriel tried desperately to stop seeing her again. His hand was outstretched, new intent to turn the key and turn on the car engine when his phone suddenly rang.
Adriel glanced sideways. there are a line of names printed on the phone screen. Kafka contact name stored in the phone book.
Without thinking, Adriel grabbed the phone. Not to lift her incoming calls. while ignoring the still-audible ring tone, Adriel unpacks the back cover of her cell phone. The phone's screen is darkening inactive after Adriel pulls out the installed battery, then throws it out of care for the front passenger seat.
He does not have time to serve the losers.
