Bad people as well as good people get hurt, it pains good people the more because in most cases, we end up doing nothing, we believe better lies ahead and there's no point revenging.
I am Tan!
I get into relationships as the good guy, make it work like the good guy, invest my all into it like the good guy but i get thrown out like a thief, beaten, disgraced, thorn apart and left to waste away and after a while i get back on my feet, just like a good guy, move on like nothing happened, starting a fresh like a new day.
It gets worse every time it happens.

I am Tan, every woman's dream man who never gets one in reality, I'm a gifted compere, its one of the things that keeps me going and keeps the money coming.

I'll go straight to the pain.

So i got a call from my boss that there was an urgent job he would love me to take by weekend.
No, not this weekend, i already planned to be with Mara and finally propose after 3 years of being convinced she was the one.
We usually get notified about events 3weeks earlier to enable us put plans in place,it was supposed to be my first free weekend in 4 months and i planned to make the best of it.
No! My boss cannot just call to ruin it all of a sudden. He pleaded with me and the pay was huge, 3 times more than the regular, i demanded more thinking it would make him change his mind but he agreed to pay.
I finally agreed, it was a Saturday's job and i couldn't adjust the plan till Sunday .

Mara agreed to having the date on later on Saturday evening,it's something we have been planning to do for 3weeks and on my way to her place, i picked up the dress she had been admiring for months which i couldn't afford then, according to her, she wanted to put it on for her big day, i thought she already suspected i was going to propose and she was getting ready....

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Pain Saturday

I woke up sad, quite on usual. I was dull, un motivated and i just felt uneasy. Thoughts of Mara swept my mind with a bad aura. I called her, no response, she wasn't online, she didn't reply my last message, i began to get scared.
I rushed down to her house, no body was home, i called over and again till she finally picked up.
She sounded fine, excited and convinced me there was nothing to worry about, she was out with the girls.
I went back home and started to prepare for work, i still felt uneasy but i had to pull myself together.

Entering the reception venue, everything was beautiful, classic and exquisite. I gushed over the excellence as i fantasized my big day. I couldn't wait for evening , i started rehearsing my lines.

The couple danced in and the bride's dress looked familiar, the face looked familiar,

My Mara!!!

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I was numb but calculated
I was dead but still breathing
The earth was spinning,
Tan! Faint, please faint!

For some reason i was still normal but inside of me i knew i was mad.

She wasn't surprised to see me, she wasn't shocked and she wae happy in the dress i paid for!!!

Tan! Why are you still standing there, ruin their day, tell the whole world you were about proposing, cause a scene....

Tan is a good man.....

I was in control, i did my job and before anyone could say jack, i was done.
I was paid a lot of money, i kept on consoling myself with that thought..

I walked out, straight into my car, off to the lounge.
I was done being a good guy...
Good guy's gone bad!!!

I got into the lounge and She was there,right there at my comfort zone. i felt like beating the life out of her, she looked miserable too. Looks like we suffered the same pain, i was about reaching out....
Tan! Good guy's gone bad, don't ruin the new you.

I got my first drink, finished, started making the bad guy's list till i was drunk.

She came to me....
I'll drive you home

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I gave a mischievous smile, there goes my first victim, no stress. I pretended to be wasted, she took my keys, and drove me to her house.

I woke up weak, and opened my eyes to behold this beauty, her eyes looked sore. She was in pain too, as i moved to speak, she cut me short

"shhhh! Listen.....
I was hurt last night, i went to the lounge to drown well in my pain, drink till i got wasted and hopefully have one good guy pity me, drive me home and take care of me till my pain is gone but a few minutes later, you walked in, i saw more pain in your eyes when you looked at me, i watched you for hours drown in your pain, i watched the tables turn, i had to finish what fate started, I'm Nora, let me help you heal"

Her voice was husky but had strength

She gave me my car keys, and a bottle of water and she was gone.

I found my way out, of her house, her neighborhood and back to my house.

I later found a note she left for me in my car.

She came to me
Even with her pain she helped me heal

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