Steemit was important to me. I bought my stake with my own hard earned cash. I placed my trust in the dream of Steem. That trust has been broken it seems. A stakeholder on this platform doesn't want me to be a part of this community anymore.
Why? I don't think it's a personal thing he has against me. I think he just doesn't like Steemit.
Whatever his reasons, he has chosen to drive away 
It is a painful for thing for me. I invested in Steem and Steemit. I'm 50 plus years old now, building a completely new life for myself after arriving in the U.S. with a suitcase in 2011. Cryptocurrency investments are a way for me to leverage my money and secure a future for myself.
I'm not overly reckless with my money. I came to Steemit to research my investment. I liked what I saw. I waited for the price to bottom and started buying my stake. It was a stake that contained the hope of future security. I brighter future for myself.
So as I reflect today on my vulnerability and expendability in this community, I am mourning those hopes and dreams a little. The emotion and energy I put into curating, developing networks of friends, encouraging others to find a place on the platform, welcoming new users, all feels for nought today.
It's just a feeling though. I will pick myself up, as I have always done and move with determination to the next plan. A small part of me would like to believe that my old dream remains. When will I let go? Not today. I'll keep a little glimmer alive today.
