This is my first post on Steemit. I originally came here after my Youtube channel was deleted for making a video about the florida shooting being another Hoax and including witness testimony of there being more than one shooter. I was flagged for "harassment or bullying" more than once... I tried again and again (literally) to re upload all my work (minus the hoaxed events stuff) to backup youtube channels only to have them deleted overnight as well, this time for reaching out to former subs and connecting with like minded people in comments- (the last two channels were deleted without warning for (spamming or solicitation) - I guess commenting "amen" or "here is my new channel" is SPAMMING?!
I'm here to seek like minded individuals (truthers and FE WOKE), build dialogue and hopefully share my story of awakening and coming out of a years long drug and alcohol haze only to further research conspiracy theories and eventually be led to the works of Eric Dubay.
In retrospect, I'm grateful for every gatekeeper I've found along my journey of knowing something was wrong with the world... even mr Alex Jones who (years ago), got me to awaken to many tyrannies (did I almost spell TRANNYS, hahah- that has been a more recent discovery)- and more on that as it is so important as well.
All I know is this world is sick, and we have been lied to about EVERYTHING. Some years ago (while still in a drunken haze and hopelessly addicted to prescription buprenorphine) - I began a journey of "spirituality" - after the 2012 end times predictions and my own lack of faith in any higher power from being raised Roman Catholic- led me to find something to make me "not afraid". Teachings that made me "feel good" were really just seductive spirits and I know now that just because it seems like the easier, softer way doesn't make it TRUTH. Some of (if not MANY)- of these so called spiritual "Gurus" may be completely blinded, perhaps Archon controlled or possessed, inverted, or just delusional and not even know it. When Eric Dubay hopped on the Zeitgeist bandwagon my heart dropped. We must stay vigilant and be discerning...
Anyways, a few years ago in prison for a percocet deal gone wrong, I had some "dry time"- really I was just too broke to get high in prison... So down the rabbit hole of Hinduism, and Buddhism, and eventually eckhart Tolle's work I went. When I got out I binge watched Spirit Science and Spiritual Gurus who preached that "God was within", evil was subjective, and Christ Consciousness was attainable and all of that... Only to keep living animalistically and even spreading some New Agey teachings on my first Youtube channel, where I vlogged about getting myself off a 10 year pill habit through alcohol and Kratom. I thought I was enlightened but I was delusional...
I thank God for the "free" platform of Youtube as all I had was a cell phone and I had to use this platform of expression to have a means to look at myself from the shoes of an outsider. And although I have literally lost HUNDREDS of videos to 3 youtube channel deletions in under a month (It would seem I have been Blacklisted).. I now keep going to fight censorship through hopefully coming over to greener pastures, and perhaps share some of my work, (eventually)... as I know D tube is not Youtube and uploading a bunch isn't the same as this is not an Ad platform.
Perhaps this will give me a chance to interact more and test the waters. What else... I have been through broken bones, broken relationships, prison twice for middle man drug deals where I was just trying to support my habit, and luckily have narrowly escaped death many times. I'm not saying this to sound cool. It was supremely stupid. All of it. I'm saying this to be 100 percent vulnerable as on Youtube after my flat earth awakening, my whole life changed. And I went from daily experiences in early sobriety and vlogging about how different and real life was... To just blowing out flat earth videos and even mirroring some peoples stuff so my facebook friends and family who saw my posts would have ONE place to scour over all the things that had "opened my eyes"... I got away from my recovery a bit and honestly have very little desire to use as I now know without a doubt we were CREATED and SPIRITUAL WARFARE IS REAL. To think, I used to believe in ALIENS in the ancient aliens sense and followed "channeled lectures" and the whatnot... Only to realize now more than ever that DEMONS AND ANGELS DO EXIST. And Aliens as hellywood would have us believe are just a hoax as is space opposed to the "waters above"
I am in a 12 step program of recovery and coming up on 6 months of absolute abstinence from anything except caffeine. I even did no fap for 4 months - until a recent relapse. That's pretty much me in a nutshell. I am Hanging on to my fourth Youtube channel for what reason I don't know. Theres literally 2 subscribers. a month ago I had hundreds a day coming in off a firmament video then BAM - Youtube deleted me for the florida shooting video. I have since added to and improved my firmament vid by adding clips of Hillary clinton saying "we have yet to break that highest glass ceiling" and putting in 2 extra clips of actual rockets seemingly hitting the dome... Perhaps when I see just how many people are hurling venom over here or how this works out I will share. But I'm kind of walking into this in pure FAITH. I was uploading so much on youtube for the sake of my family to see and (I hoped)- awaken to these same truths that I lost touch with my own spiritual life a bit and got sucked into Youtube land I guess. I'm going to go back to reading the KJV and focusing on my prayer life more. But perhaps can get into blogging as Thanks to sobriety, and thanks to my higher power who I choose to call GOD, I am no longer in trouble with the law, have changed the people, places and things in my life, and I want to preserve a place where everything I do won't just disappear overnight as it has so many times.
I guess this is absolute transparency, and vulnerability, on what I hope to be a true free speech platform that I can cozy up to in this journey of exposing deception, talking about my recovery (I'm currently staying in a sober house as I still reside in the same town where I did a majority of my using, and subsequently, my new age dabbling)- and building a foundation. I don't even know what tags to use, but one thing I learned from Youtube is just express! and hopefully, this resonates with someone. I'm off to reseach the D tube etiquette and platform as a whole, and looking forward to the future, whatever it may bring. Just grateful to not have been disheartened enough to go back out to using. And looking forward to connecting with many of you. God be with us all. Much Love and Transparency.
