Ten years have passed. By the time I went to study in medical school, went into the army, married and our son was born, and was a successful businessperson at that time. About that experience, I almost forgot my youth, but also over the years, I have continued and deepened my yoga, Tai Dzi and meditation. One day my old friend from out of town, at a meeting, let me read the journal "Science and Religion," in which there was an article about an Indian mystic Osho (Rajneesh). And suddenly, while reading excerpts from the conversation of the mystic, in that something had happened, and the thought struck me - that's what I've always been looking for. I asked my friend to read a book of this teacher and he did not deny. It was a book "Mustard seed" of the parables of Jesus. Initially the book was going very slowly and almost every sentence with all my ideas about life was turned over upside down completely. This energy is captivated me, and sometimes really wanted to devote her entire...
On 29 October 1995 the unexpected happened: my wife, Valeria left the house Sunday morning and never returned. A few days after her disappearance, when I realized what had happened, I fell into a state of utter despair. On this day, I fell to my knees and asked God for the first time directly, weeping, and begged him not to take her from me. "Why all this happened to me?" Further searches only helped to tighten the knot of hopelessness and futility.
Later, after visiting one of the psychics who told me the terrible story of her passing, I cried, unable to stop for hours...
The police, who were actively seeking and investigating the disappearance, did not find any clues, and I was the only suspect. A few months later, the investigating authorities locked me up for several days in the chamber and carried out regular cross-examination and inquiry. Everything was mixed up in my head, I was completely overcome and exhausted by constant interrogations, and I had not had a chance to sleep. At some point, crashing on the boards in the chamber I shut down ... and had a vision.
“I'm on the streets of my childhood days and behind me my friend with my son. I notice running towards me a little shepherd puppy, he wags his tail and in doing so clings to the land of friendliness, I reach out to pet him and hear him telling me – “take me with you!” Caught unawares, I withdraw my hand and look back to my companions: "did you hear that?" - I ask. "No, I did not hear anything" - says friend. The pup hops in front of our procession. Suddenly, a big black crow swoops down on him and begins trying to peck out his eyes. Jumping up, I swing a leg to ward off a crow, and at this point some unseen force grabs me like a feather and carries me sharply upwards... my breath was catch. Almost instantly, the force transfers me to the top of the roof two-storey house and then gently lowers me. In front of me a few meters away sits a huge sparrow-like faced man, with big black eyes. He does not utter a word. I look into his eyes and through the eye contact I first time in life feel the deepest penetration into the consciousness of my being to its source in the navel (what called the Hara). At this point, there breaks free a vibration perceived by me as “OM” and with it I feel the infinite power and bliss.”
An overwhelming flow of energy fills up within me, and I jump unable to contain the joy and sense of freedom that fills me. Then to the surprise of the other inmates, I start to laugh non-stop and everything changes for me drastically, I feel free, confident and inspired. I feel it is like help from above!
Soon after that, I was release from prison. I felt and realized that this was the Call, the call of the beyond, and I began to feel some very subtle presence, which did not exist before. I realized that this Being, as I saw it, in the form of a sparrow, was my teacher (my guide), and that he shared his experience of compassion and love, at the right time and right place. However, who is he?
(to be continue)