What is it that gives us the sense personal achievement, completion, accomplishment? Why can we accept less from others than willing from ourselves? How did we arrive at this level of personal quota?

I have always set the bar high for myself, sometimes only setting myself up for failure. Not because I cannot achieve something but because I set the quota to high to fill, ultimately defeating my motivations.

I find myself asking what is it that drives me to setting this level of accomplishment in front of myself? The only answer that makes sense is high expectations of myself.

But why am I able to accept less from others than from myself? I am fairly easy going but have always been fairly hard on myself, self punishment almost. I have always thought this extends from low self esteem, no matter what I do it’s not good enough. My competitive nature shines through but is hindered by the very thing that keep setting that high quota.

What is it that pushes me to set that high bar of achievement, my personal quota? A desire to be proud of myself, to know I have accomplished something that has a greater meaning.

I am hard on myself not because I am punishing me for what I have done but for the sake of motivating myself to achieve more but simply put....