...and what? Freewriting I think. Which is a fancy way of saying ”I can’t be bothered to write a cohesive post so I’m just gonna write what ever random shit I can think of and see where that leads”.
I’m trying to get back to the habit of posting every day but because I was slacking for so long it’s quite hard. The thing with habits is that you actually have to do the thing for something like two weeks until it becomes a habit and thus, lot more easier. I think I do pretty well usually up until day 5. So strong. Much willpower.
I’ve been trying to create a few more healthy habits and practises and in a perfect world, I’ll keep building on those and adding more good ones once I’ve made a previous one stick.
I have certain things I like and do that are good but I do get bored and I switch things up. I kinda obsess with one thing for a while and then forget about it for some time. And that is with basically everything in my life, the good the bad, the people, foods, hobbies, clothes, what ever. No matter how good they are and my favourite one minute, I get bored of it.
I listen to a song on repeat for a few days and then move on to the next one. I enjoy a drink and keep drinking the same stuff for a while until I abandon it and choose something else. I cook a similar meal often for some weeks and then completely forget about it. And yes, I grow bored of people too.
My switch is on/off, no dimmer on this one.
Some things I do abandon completely and never even think of them again once my obsession is over, but the best ones stay in rotation. I have favourites that come back to use. I don’t know when and why, they just do and I take it as it is. Coffee instead of tea, pasta instead of wok, hoodies versus knits, sneakers versus boots, Netflix versus audiobooks.
I also put people into the closet only to take some of them out to play with again. Not everyone is okay with that but I do not have the energy to keep playing with the same 20 dolls every damn week. I prefer to dress one up for a few days and give it all my attention, and then put it back and play with the next one.
It’s all the attention or none of the attention. You get all of me for a time, or none of me. Little bit every day is not an option.