Yesterday, I wrote a post about my near future. I stood without a decent chance to continue my education due to regulations and laws in Sweden. The past 1.5 years felt like a total waste as I wasn't likely to finish my education. My dream of becoming an assistant-nurse specialized in psychiatry was almost entirely shattered...
I could no longer see a future where I studied to become a psychologist, or worked with health- and social care.
- Things seemed to be impossible.
Paraskevidekatriaphobia
Paraskevidekatriaphobia is the fear of Friday the 13th. Many think that the reason for the number 13's bad luck comes from the Bible. Judas, who betrayed Jesus, is thought to have been the 13th guest to sit down to the Last Supper. Even today, it's considered unlucky to have 13 people sitting at a dinner table, and some people pop a teddy bear in a seat to make the number of guests up to 14!
In Norse mythology, a dinner party of the gods was ruined by the 13th guest called Loki, who caused the world to be plunged into darkness. For hundreds of years, Friday has been considered the unluckiest day of the week. In Geoffrey Chaucer's famous Canterbury Tales, written in the 14th Century, he says "and on a Friday fell all this mischance".
Friday the 13th. The bad luck holiday. Superstition.
I have never feared Friday the 13th, but I have always been somewhat extra careful if I have done things I usually don't do. Like climbing a ladder for instance. I don't do that several times per week, so if I could, I would actually avoid doing that on this specific day...
- Superstition.
That being said, I wouldn't dream of receiving good news on this day... But, I am no longer without hope. I will continue my education and I will graduate in December this year. Fuck the government, laws and regulations.
I talked with one of my closest friends earlier today. We talked about all types of things, like we usually do. Somewhere in the middle of our conversation, we started to talk about my education and my current situation. I told him about the rejection letter regarding the student loan I applied for, I told him that I wouldn't have an income for the final 3 months and that I wasn't likely to finish my education because of this...
We also talked about my living expenses amongst other things. He asked me how much I would need per month and I told him.
- "650 USD."
That is the bare minimum. That is exactly what I need to pay rent, electricity, internet and phone. My income per month since March 2018 has been $1100. That's my student loan.
He just told me this:
"Finish your education. Don't even think of giving up now. 3 more months, it would be retarded to quit now. Fuck CSN (those who pays out student loans) and fuck the government. Fuck rules and laws. I will give you 650 USD per month until you graduate."
And... I know he will. Because he stand by his words.
- How awesome is that?
I am no longer desperate or afraid. I will not have to worry about paying rent. I don't have to think about giving up. I can continue. I can still strive towards my goals and dreams. All due to his helping hand.
Friday the 13th.
"Unlucky Friday"