…. I was not satisfied anymore, I wanted something more sophisticated to suit my status, my new status most of which was made up by myself, something that couldn’t unambiguously be complained to someone else.
My mind drifted horizontally now because the gravity at which I had crashed as a result of my vertical drifts had left me broken. Pacing through thoughts and replaying occurrences where she was totally blameless, where she had nothing to do with my impending decision, I kept wondering how I was to explain to the same person I had told so many sweet things, at which time was true that she does not fit into my “new sophistication“.
I had read earlier not to let emotions get in the way of my focus, but I did give it a second thought. Was I going forward or starting from scratch? I wasn’t going to tell her, I was just going to let her mess it up herself. I will wait, besides I felt the foundations crumble right beneath where I stood, somewhere we once used to stand.
if you can relate please drop a comment, i will sincerely love to know how you handled 'this' or how you would.