Acknowledged. Its impossible to know or understand until its happening to you.
Phenomena beyond comprehension
Scanner darkly ia a walk in the park
I would suggest the convoluted approach
To not fight abandon hope
And all previous expectations
And become symbiotic with
The forces working against you
It is fighting fire with suddenly no oxygen
Give up give in become a dead buddha
Stop fighting
There is nothing to accomplish
Things will not get better
Do whatever shadow work you have to
To resign the fight
Yet still exist
Embrace the enemy
Love like octopus ink
A quote from
William s. Burroughs
He dealt with it
Every day of his life.