I am a dark skinned girl with big boobs, average looking, little chubby.
Being dark skinned is something of a sin. No matter how much people make themselves seem open minded, there will always be a filter in every girls photo. You are never somebody's crush. Relatives and sometimes your friends ridicule your dark skin. Pimple prone short, boyish fair skinned girl who is average in studies = nice skinned dark curvy girl who is good in studies.
Conversation I heard between my well settled civil engineer graduate uncle and my grandma.
Uncle : I wouldn't have married Rita (name changed, she did b. Pharm) if she isn't so cute, white skinned.
Grandma : Kids are going to be fair. looks at me and then adds I wish Aarthi (me, name changed) was fairer. Ananya (cousin sister) is so fair, she's going to settle well.
I was at 3rd grade but the scene etched so well in my memory. I can't look at my uncle and grandma with confidence.
Some random conversations.
Me (at 8th grade) to my dad : I will earn well and protect my parents. I will get married at 27.
Mom : 27?!! For a dark skinned girl 24 is the right age. Also you are so fat looking.
Dad: stop it.
Friends, even the close ones, look down on me.
Me : I have a crush on this guy. goes on explaining
Fair skinned Fri 1 : Okay. Isn't he a bit good looking, I mean he always has a fair girl as his girlfriend. He gave me friend request on fb and…… Do people ever has crush on you?
Me : um… No
Fri 1,2,3,4 : Looks at me pitifully like I am an breast cancer survivor
Now, big boobs.
I never be comfortable with my big boobs. They are kind of droopy due to more weight it seems. And my mom ridicules me every day. It's traumatizing. I never asked for big boobs. Why can't people seem to accept curvy chubby girls with big boobs. I used to get highly self conscious when I go out and it made me walk or stand awkwardly.
In south India, teachers always have a fair skinned girl as a pet. Dark skinned girls are not the front person in any competition. The partiality is utterly disgusting and soul crushing.
Bottomline:
Every south Indian guy wants a fair skinned girl with Aryan features.
As a dark skinned, I am always trying prove something to someone. I need to overachieve in every aspects.
Even a dark skinned guy will ridicule a dark skinned girl.
I am seriously considering boob reduction surgery to save myself from my mom ridicules, perverted looks, etc etc.
To society : Be kind to all girls.
