Why is it that you choose not to accept failure. Or rather, why is it that you cannot accept it? Is it because you are always the one with the answers? Maybe it's acceptable for you to avoid the admittance that your analysis was flawed. It is others that make mistakes and accept the defeat of doing so, not you. Your pattern of thought is steady, is comfortable. Even if your ideas or beliefs came from another, you often absorb them as your own. Often protecting and blindly fighting for them to a point of no return. All has been put into you through others. You discovered nothing. You have become a variety pack of ideas sitting lonely on the bottom shelf. You pick what makes you better and dispose of the rest, never giving the untested a chance. It was and still is freewill. Choices you have no way to explain. They were just there, filling out the forms and inputting the procedures. But embarrassment will never be involved in what your decisions deem acceptable. It is for those that cannot think, for those that trusted too much.... for those not you.