This is probably going to be a bit of a weird post coming from me, especially because I usually preach a more conservative lifestyle but I want to scale that back a bit and talk about taking chances. Im really not talking about money but rather taking chances in your every day life rather than wishing something would happen. They say that on someones deathbed they are more regretful of the things they didnt do than the things they did and I find myself resonating with that idea quite often.
In my high school and college years I often chose to not take chances and sat back and watched things happen. Im not a shy person at all, in fact im pretty outgoing but I can admit im a bit odd and I often have to grow on people before they actually like me. Im not the best looking guy, im tall which works for me, but I have never had the easiest time with women and often find there is a bit of a hole in my life in that department. It would be fine if it didnt bother me, but for some stupid reason it does.
What bothers me the most is the few relationships with girls that I did have and I didnt try to take it to another level. I knew there was a 99% chance it would have never worked out, but even for that 1% chance I think I should have tried. Im usually good at being level headed and giving great advice, but I often find it hard and struggle with using the advice for myself. I shouldnt care what other people think of me, especially girls, but I often do.
In many ways it is because I am still very young and in age I think people realize it is stupid to please everyone. I hope that point for me comes very soon but I dont think it will. I also somehow feel like im missing out on life by not taking these chances and doing something that has some emotional response within me every day. I know some of my friends feel this way working dead end jobs as well, but I am supposed to be in a position where I can take risks and chances, yet I find myself standing still.
I guess this post was more of a rant rather than a post with actual real meaning, but I dont want people out there to fall into the same trap I do. Even if you will look stupid try and do something that might make you feel uncomfortable but might also have a chance at making your life more fulfilling. Im trying to do the same and hopefully I will have some success doing it in the future. I dont want to be on my deathbed filled with regrets and at my current pace, thats what I feel will happen.
-Calaber24p