Yesterday I told mother to buy two meals that I usually eat during my dialysis because I just like the way they make the fried meat, it is tender and crispy. But I cannot enjoy it much without seasoning the rice with their soy sauce. Now with my appetite returned I would as much as I can until I am satiated.
My mother thought that I would eat it both which I could not because I just can't eat that much because of my very limited bread basket capacity inside me.
Now I am hungry and I am thinking about having it for my breakfast. We have something to heat the rice again, well that is if my parents haven't eaten the rice that came with my order. But if they didn't then I could ask my mother to fix those for me.
I just hate that I am very dependent on my parents now because of my disability so I am just hoping for another bull run on cryptos so that I could cash some of my cryptos and repay them by contributing some efforts in this house like renovation, etc. just for them to have a clean and safe house for the rest of their years after I am gone.
With the condition that I am suffering from right now I really want to be just pop like a bubble and be gone. It is because with all these inability to walk due to pain really will not give me the best of life. It is a struggle everyday and uncertainty and fear in what lies ahead just batters my thoughts each and everyday.
I am fortunate that at least I have the steem community to lean on and a loving and caring parents and God above, all gives me comfort and assurance. May God Help me continuously.