Living in this world as I realized it was hard and you are really up for yourself and on your own. It is a battle for existence and there are dangers everywhere. It is always a struggle and your own fight for your life in a way makes you strong but if you are not fighting anymore your will just falter and die.
Actually when we are born we are weak and vulnerable to diseases and our bodies just adapt to a new surroundings and with good nutrition will build a defense against germs that could maim or kill. So our natural bodies has its own fights just to remain existing and surviving in this natural world.
We ourselves are in this world to survive and we just have to work it out every single obstacle and problem that gets in our way so that we can flourish and also to remain alive.
What I don't like is the constant struggle in my life and the inclusion of pain and medical maladies seems like I was living in hell without the flames. But it doesn't mean that the misery doesn't bother me because it is one thing that really is a burden to me not to mention the mental stresses that it brings me.
So with all these hard and heavy burdens in my life I just wished really that I was not born because it is just hideous that I never made it to the first base and then my uniform was stripped from me one by one until I am bare naked and the whole world will see naked and defeated. It is just how I put it because being born without being able to really live a normal life is unbelievable that it happens and out of a billion people it happened to me.