Today I had felt some kind of skip beats with my heart, I guess that it is because of my fruit consumption everyday. It is because that I am not restricting my diet with my fruit consumption because I really have some constipation issues due to my intake of Calcium supplements which is required or prescribed to me by my doctor.
It is a bit scary when I do pass some hard stools because I do not know if I would go to the emergency room or not. I had been there for the same reason which I thought they would mechanically/manually take it out but instead given me suppositories, thank goodness that it worked.
Now I do not want to go to that process again because it is really expensive to go to the hospital and also it is really stressful for me as well physically, mentally, and financially not to mention the drag that I cause for my parents who doesn't deserve to suffer with me.
That is why with my fear of constipating I am just taking or eating fruits which each meal that I take. Tomorrow God-willing I will just try to eat only once so that I can only eat one serving of fruit, maybe half of one small apple is just enough to help me with my stools.
Anyway I had been with this heart palpitation issues before. It is always resolved by dialysis. Right now I just have to not overdo in consuming fruits because I might get to accidentally stop my heart in the process leading to my death.
Well it is okay if I die anyway at least I am no longer would suffer with this health situation of mine so that is what I just have to do, to control my diet in that regard even though I really wanted to die as well because obviously my life already turned south at it is just hard to curve it right now since so many physical changes had happened to my body already and correcting my current condition would require me to spend a hideous amounts of money for it which I could never afford.
For me having a high elevation of potassium is not that of a big deal anymore because if I would die because of it is still okay for me, well I am dead anyway so I would not worry anymore if that happens.