July has been hard, for several reasons. My intent was to increase my productivity, work more and have more fun. Instead I ended up sick with botulism which made it so I basically only did the bare minimum for the entire month, until now.
Now as I start to feel better its time to catch up on all the things I wanted to be doing when I was sick. Turns out even though I only had a “mild” case of botulism I still really fucked up my stomach. It’s pretty sensitive to everything right now, even the meds they prescribed me for an ulcer.
One thing I learned is I can at least do the minimum to keep myself going as far as work is concerned, even when extremely ill. That’s a pretty comforting thought to me.
*Some candy I made based off of something I tried in Tuscon once called Cowboy Candy. Made from prickly pear cactus fruit. *
Almost as a sort of reminder of this month, I deleted a document I wrote a few days ago but didn’t have the energy to publish. The gist is that I’m feeling unfocused and scatterbrained, which is making productivity hard. If it wasn’t for my bullet journal, I’d likely get nothing done.
One thing in all of this that I learned was I was actually a pretty productive person before all of this. It’s actually kinda silly considering I only microdosed the mushrooms in an attempt to become more productive. At this point, the lesson I’m taking is that I just need to keep trying new time management techniques, not rely on substances for an increase in productivity. Or rather keeping it to weed, weed has never made me sick.
My desk this morning while getting my day started.
I’m behind on my garden but however in the last several days I have managed to make some interesting things. I’m starting to create again for the first time in several weeks. Even painting mandalas and doing a much better job of it than before.
One thing that was especially hard about all of this was the fact that my schedule was thrown out of whack being sick. I did things when I could and spent the rest of the time feeling “not so good”. I was frustrated I couldn’t keep to my usual schedule of getting things done in the morning with creative time later in the day.
This was exaggerated by internet issues. Most of the time I was sick we had no internet. Literally the day after we replaced the connection, the first company showed up for repair. We now have two companies and sometimes they still don’t work...usually when I need them the most. It’s a bit frustrating.
But I keep working because the internet issues taught me I can still do my job over cell phone data if I have to, which is good to know even if it was frustrating to learn.
As I write I have a headache that’s persisted all day. Not sure if it’s a lingering affect of botulism, related to the changing weather or what. Anyway that’s what I have for now, going to try and make this a regular thing again.