I really miss the old me, being sociable, happy, motivated.
These past 2 months have turned my world upside down. I feel so very alone and depressed constantly, only I can fix this and I honestly feel unable at this point in time. There are so many things that I need to do going back to work being one of them. Being able to spend time with my children without showing them how I feel about things being another.
There is no quick or easy solution to what I feel and right now I think spending so much time alone and not being to rest properly is only making my life worse.
I feel trapped in a very unhappy spiral of shit.
I need to make some very important decisions in the coming days and I really don't know where to start with them, Im not looking for people to sorry for me or trying to victimize myself I just need to express my feeling right now in the hopes that I can realize things about myself which can help me to get on the right path and stop wanting to fix what obviously can't be.
Having said this and I know many of you have been through terrible times, life is rough on all of us at times. But hitting rock bottom like this is just something that I never imagined could drain the desire to live in such proportions.
Thanks for reading
Lorenzo
