I feel you brother. I think we all feel like that in some of our more quiet, honest moments.

If it isn't too . . . intimate, what are your symptoms?

If you are worrying about it, might be better just to get some tests done and then spend some time connecting to Source to see what comes out of it.

There are worse things than living like you are dying, even if you decide you aren't.

Hang in there brother, even if you decide to give up the fight. Sometimes I only keep going because, due to how I think the Universe PROBABLY works, the alternative is an even bigger downer.

I know this doesn't help.