Since getting home from Arizona my depression and anxiety have been really bad. It doesn't help that sleep is off from the time zone difference.
I haven't been able to eat anything except for after taking my sleep medication.
The sleeping medication makes me really hungry and it is impossible for me to fall asleep until I've eaten something. So that is the only time during the day that I eat for almost a week now.
Even just thinking about eating something makes me feel sick.
I ordered an Isagenix package which has meal replacement shakes. Hoping that will help with getting some of the vitamins and minerals my body needs.
I also filled out the application for the personal therapy dog on Friday. Just waiting for a call from the company for an intake call.
The depression and anxiety are just getting to be too much to handle. I still have this feeling that this summer will be my last. I haven't given up though. I am going to talk to my psychiatrist about 2 new treatments, ketamine injections and trans cranial magnetic stimulation.
I am just in such a bad place right now and spend most of my time alone and laying in bed or on the couch.