On June 20 my partner attend his auntie's birthday, he travel for an hour just to get there, I let him cause why not I am not that strict to him when he wants to go to his relatives place and since we can't come because of the pandemic and children are not allowed to go outside and travel, me and my two sons stay at home.
He stays there for a whole day and i never bother calling him cause i know that its his family time with them too, until afternoon came i was expecting him to come home before dark. Dark came and i received a call from him telling me that he will be home super late and i started to worry cause its just me and kids in the house and i was expecting him to come home already and I am too afraid for him driving late at night cause i have been seeing post on facebook about motorcycle accidents at night.
I started to argue with him and telling him to head home immediately, i was yelling at him on the phone already then he hung up and never called again.
I don't know what to do after that, i skip dinner for to much worrying and i was constantly going outside whenever i hear a motorcycle came thinking it was him.
I started to panic and started thinking bad things my body is shivering in fear and i cant breath properly already and my head hurts a lot. I tried to calm myself but my mind keep on thinking bad things I cant control my emotions anymore and I started to cry. I seek help for my friends on facebook finding someone I could talk to just to calm myself down.
Then at 10 o'clock in the evening he came home, I was so mad at him and never talk to him then he let me be. He sleep far from me and I was lying down beside our children and can't sleep because i feel like my whole body is shivering because of all sorts of mix emotion i feel.
CONTINUATION ON PART 2. . .
All sorts of comments are welcome.
Advices are really appreciated.
Sorry if my writings are kind of lame and my english are not that well.
Thanks for reading.